To love or not to love a battle of your mind and body

As I ponder over and over in my mind, To love, or not to love, in my mind,, My mind its telling me no but my body is telling me yes, as r. Kelly would say, I have been in so many situations that made that song so appealing to my membranes. As I was being touch my mind would say if I let go to this pleasure would there be any regrets later?

will I be able to forgive myself for the decision I make knowing right from wrong and being raised in a religious household. Fighting a battle with my free will to entertain these thoughts of pleasure.

Seeing your friends go out to party and dances , while you stay at home looking out the window , wondering how fun it would be if you can just indulge in such a atmosphere of fun and camaraderie. while your grandparents calling you to read the next  verse in your bible study,

your friends asking you, can you go to the movies and can you go out on a date, and your grandparents on one shoulder saying bad associations spoils useful habits, and temptation on the other shoulder saying its okay, know one will no , if we meet and sneak to the park, are you and a bunch of your friends, meet at the movies, just say your going to spend the night over your best friend no problems no worries.

but deep down inside your asking yourself what should i do, because the bloom of youth is ever so present in your dynamics of growing into womanhood, as you know whats right from wrong always being showed in the bible God's word ever present in your mind, and way of life,

by not giving into temptation of sexual desire before being married, being that your body is a temple something special for both you and your prospective mate to enjoy in the boundaries of holy matrimony that the lord has set before us, not forsaking the marriage bed.

as you toss and turn its like your mind is in a battle field because you feel like your missing out on all the things your friends out in the world or partaking in, fun fun fun, while you sit at home being bored bored bored
then while you are sneaking and talking to this person of interest having feelings and catching feelings it may seem deep and loving to you, as you find your feelings getting stronger and stronger and the emotions like a tornado spinning out of control,

its like a tug of war when you're dealing with your emotions and desires, your pleasure zone goes sky high when you're in that moment of ecstasy and all thoughts of common sense is out the doorway, But then again in a split second in your mind speech bubble of your mental thought process  you conjure up the thoughts if a make love to this fool will there be a aftermath of problem or more pleasurable moments to come and by me letting myself go sexually will this progress into a meaningful relationship.

Or would the deceptive powers of my decision i made succumb to or  yield to superior strength or force  overpowering my appeal or desire to <succumb to temptation> 
or will my decision  to be brought to an end (as death) by the effect of destructive  and disruptive forces. that i allowed to be entertained in my life;

That leads you in this way of life, if you gave into the temptation, and your left all alone with a new life growing inside of you, the beautiful blessing of life, anew, by you praying for forgiveness, and have a repentive attitude for the almighty to give you the strength to cope and endure with this new journey and seasons you are about to partake in your life for 18 years to come,

we may all have fallen into this cycle one time or another in our life without being in union blessed by the almighty but the beautiful thing is, that He never we leave us, we always leave him, and by displaying the right heart condition, and teaching others whats required of us so, they won't succumb to the plows of this system of things, but having the gift of free will, what way it will guide us is a personal choice we personally have to make on our own,

but remember even if you slip , because the reality is humans our born into sin, that, it can always be rectified threw the blessings his and holy spirit, and if you just reach out and ask for forgiveness you always will be led into the right direction, to have  the true meaning of love, and that's true agape love always adapting the fruit-ages of the spirit in your way of life so when the battle of your mind and body, starts to wage war with you,
 Don't worry about anything; instead, pray about everything. Tell God what you need, and thank him for all he has done.Philippians 4:6

to love and not to love a battle of your mind and body by helen burnett-davis