FORSAKEN LOVE

abandoned or deserted.

"a journey into forgotten and forsaken places"

my tears fall down my face, as my tear frame my face as they flow nonstop

my tear ducts our overwhelmed like a water fall,

as my tear stain my pillow top, my mind takes me to a point of betrayal and down right deceit.

 of a love of dishonestly]

my heart is in a state of turmoil, as i am one being in a conflict or  debate with my inner mind to forgive or not to forgive for the sake of my salvation that the lord Jesus admonished .

If my heart is in a state of shock, and forever hurt struggling to be kind, put a smile on my face while still feeling unrelenting pain and emotional despair in my and mind because only the one almighty GOD can read are heart condition and the makeup of it , not the physical anatomy of the  physical heart I am talking about the spiritual heart, and the influence that come around it.

as my tear continue to flow i get down on bended knee because within myself the struggle to forgive this time is weighing heavy on my heart,

but then i thought to myself all that happened to almighty gods son jesus christ how he persevere and weathered the storm till the end and he was truly bless  by his father to rein with him in heaven .

when your  trulyin/ love someone , its so hard to say doodbye , ir not be mad at them no matter how they treat you its like living with a stranger with mulitiple personalitys , not knwing wich person you are going to combat.

so rem use your treasure map called love to find your way out of forgotten and forsaken places journey your way back too forgive but never forget what started you on the journy of forsaken love.

forsaken alove
by helen burnett-davis

Helen's poetic cafe lounge PRESENTS (FORSAKEN LOVE) (+playlist)

Helen's poetic cafe lounge Presents(Passion)

passion

passion is the ultimate high that you have for someone,

having a strong desire for someone  to love them and desire there very essence of sensuality  

 applied to a very strong feeling about a person or  having  Passion so intense .emotion compelling and overloaded with , enthusiastic desire for someone

when all you think about  is that  person, let your mind escape to the escapades  of love land

as your love first touched you think back to that point in time , you were very nervous at first, not knowing whats this intense desire is to follow up with,; as your hands connect the prints connect oh so perfectly, as your skin gets so moist as the perfume slightly is misted into the air, as your love inhales the intoxication of your pure essence, your love zone overflows with   pure pleasures were you can hardly contain your self.

you always wondered what this day would be like after the family and friends have left and you are totally alone with the love of your life, that put this beautiful ring on your finger and yours on his,

as each year goes by the love and the love making gets more intense, because you know every little detail about your love, knowing that your bed will never be defiled ,as the four play is played out in your mind before your body has a chance to even catch up,

passion is to desire you, passion is to love you passion is to let go and and flow with the magic in the room with all the love flowing in the room if the walls could talk they would write a book as each step to please you , and show you that this love is forever true in every since of the word.

as your warm wet perfume skin fills the room, you know what time it is, to get our minds in-tune, to continue were it all started and its gets better and better as the years goes on, this time it will not be quick this is a time to take pleasure and joy and to desire every part of your mind , body and soul,

as you whisper how much you love me, as the words you say make love to my brain, to followup and easily connect to the matter that is at hand, time to get in the mood to let all the pend up pressure of the world off your chest, and let passion knock on the door of pure ecstasy , are your ready to dine my love because i am ready for this love of matrimonial elegance pop off to a session that we will never forget my love as you spell out passion with your tongue the little member in your mouth that's speaks sweet sayings of love and honor to me as you dedicate love to my body, as i crawl to to you and slowly walk doing the sexy walk you love about me, as i dip low as you eyes stare captivating every inch and curve on my body, as passion is spelled out with every curve you touch on this body that has join in union as we are one, and we our the passion that consumes all the love we have built over the years and the time as the years go by and you still desire me as the first day you met me and the last day i said i do.as the music plays in the background and our body's move collectively together with the melody called p a ss ion passion.

pssion by helen burnett-davis

my vow to you

The sun is shining on this beautiful day, after the rain washed all the unpleasant thought-and fears of the the pass away, as i look out the window, the cool breeze on my  face and the sun beaming down on me I can feel G ODs grace, hugging me telling me I am with your my daughter.

As I walk over to my dresser and look in the mirror I see my best friend standing there looking at me saying your so beautiful, as she puts my hair in a bun, pin my flowers in my hair, and neatly put my val on my head
knowing this is it, after all the love and commitment and getting to know my future husband , everything about him from, his likes and dislikes, his ups and downs, his strengths and his weakness. his highs and lows,

my hearts starts to beat so fast, anticipating, our new life together, being so ever nervous because I am pure in mind body and soul, saving my love, my lust, my body, to this man that will promise to love me and honor me as the weaker vessel and love me as he loves himself,

As put my gown on , so every beautiful flowing down as my train traces the flow of my curves, as i slip one foot into my golden slipper and the next foot in. I glance in the mirror as my father puts his hands and caress my face, and say to my beautiful daughter now you are a women and soon to be a wife, can I please hug you one more time, as my daughter whom i raised from birth to a beautiful woman that i behold standing right tin front of me. as My father slightly picks me up and twirls me around the memories of my child hood came flowing back to me like  a merry go around in a amusement park, then and there my dad game me his blessings to pass me on to the man who would vow to cherish and love me, threw thick and thin. unconditionally manifesting this love threw his actions when he laid his eyes on me as my father walks me down the isle to the man that I love , the man that i cherish, the man that i adore, the future father of my children.

as i walk closer and closer to him i stand in front of him and i spoke these words to him
I take you as my husband, I will love you has my husband, i will cherish the love we have and the bond that will forever connect us with the almighty forever looking down with his umbrella of love covering us, in holy unadulterated union, of matrimony. my love is forever unconditional without any condition's or limitations to this love, i will love, my love thru thick and thin, thru the highs and lows, in sickness as well as in health
my love has unlimited boundaries to our love, as long as we keep god our main focus i willing ,and i am using my free will to annoyance all those in attendance to witness my undying love for, and show the that i vow to you undying love to you.


As stand and kneel down over my bed, all dress so fresh and so clean in my tux waiting to take my beautiful bride into me as she will be one with me because I love myself being that Christ is the head then i am the head and i will cherish my wife, as god has put in the oldest book in the world, his word and its ever a constant part in my life, as i follow the lords admonition, to love , honor, cherish and, obey him, and to so my bride to to be what it feels like to be love, like a man should love a women, always craving her necture of sweet ecstasy. has tear fall from my eyes, i realize that god has blessed me with a treasure oh so valuable, that is so rich, and never flawed, always flawless in beauty and elegance

As I see my bride step to me oh so closely, her beauty is so outstanding and stunning like i was a kid again in a candy store as she approached me, and i grab her hand and she mines, and when she spoke these words of love, and how much she knows my love is reciprocated forever and a day.

when it was my time to speak, I look my beautiful bride in her eyes as i see my reflections from the windows of her soul, the smile on her face told me that i was making the right decision that she was more than willing and able to take my last name and our future children wear this name as proud upstanding children to be, our legacy , i love my dear, you my air, my breath, my world next to GOD,

vows our the very essence to the beginning of a new marriage, vows meant to be spoken in out loud with witness in the room and GOD overseeing and blessing your union and journey together

1 Corinthians 13:4-8)

4 Love is patient and kind; it is not jealous or conceited or proud; 5 love is not ill-mannered or selfish or irritable; love does not keep a record of wrongs; 6 love is not happy with evil, but is happy with the truth. 7 Love never gives up; and its faith, hope, and patience never fail.

,my vow to you by helen burnett-davis

Helen's poetic cafe lounge Presents(MY VOW TO YOU)

Helen's poetic cafe lounge(I AM A MAN A FATHER AND A HUSBAND )a mans poi...

I am a man a father and a husband from a male point of view in answer to the poem the stepmother and when a woman's fed up

Its like living a double life, and I am stuck in the middle, in a three way puzzle that will forever be connected together no matter if one puzzle piece is lost and don't fit anymore.

 I have my new wife on one hand, my children in the middle, and my ex wife or baby's mom on the other end. all tugging and pulling at me in all different directions,, I have one women who will not move on, even after she has been married several time, and still refuse to give up my name like it was her maiden name that she was born with.even though we have been  divorce, decades ago, i have a baby mom from my past that refuse to live in the hear and now, and still argue with me about what happen between us as to why we broke up and i have moved on and refuse to entertain the past, and we are in the here and now and the present.

There our men that our deadbeat dad, shiftless no good, accounting for men, but they are also men, that stand up, take responsibility for the actions, and are stand up individuals that don't mind taking care of there
children, even to the point of taking them into your new life and marriage, when there mother cant do it at this moment in time. I love my kids, I will die for my kids, my kids our my legacy when i am long and gone,

I want my footprints, to pave the way for my sons to love there wife as god love him, and love his wife like he loves himself because no man hates himself, and my daughters to be up stand women, living in harmony and having god cover there bond of union in marriage, to respect there husbands and he respect her loving her as the weaker vessel and loving her as he loves himself.

some men even, feel scorned and hurt as a women may feel and go out of there way to ruin the relationship and happiness they enjoy with the new man that they have, while being pissed to see the joy on her face and laughter that she once had with you, and that glow in her eyes, dancing in the moonlight, knowing that love and beauty is no-longer entertaining me anymore.

but the man I am I try my best to co-parent in the most positive way especially being married for 18 years or more, and the kids are now grown with there own family and children, and you may have a bad relationship with one or more of your children because they still cant get over the fact that you and there mother are not together anymore, even years down the line and they have there own families.

but it all comes down to putting GOD in your life and making things work, for the children sake, for the whole family for the long run and the short run, because even though you may have only ties with your children now, and the children has aunts and uncles that they still deal with, but let keep it at that, and be happy that , we all can get along for the children sake, because kids see and emulated everything they parents my do like that game you buy as a kid, see and say, and they pull the cord and were ever the arrow lands on the repeat that habit, but if you have a good god fearing household. and when you pray as a family the outcome of the game you play in life will be a very happy beneficial one, to the point when the children get grown and start there own family, and then there legacy's will began and how you will know that you and the women in your life past and present did a great job is when there is harmony in peace in that household and it is expressed in the love your grandchildren have for you.

so as the man of the household, and the father of children, giving the ex-wife and the children mother do respect if we all play our pivotal roles and co-parent responsible,

the children will stand up and say, i love and respect my father, i love and respect my mother, and i love and respect my stepmother because they all played a major part in my life,  

and you wont see the repeated talk show of show, upon shows, of parents fighting on national tv, kids not knowing who there father really is, or how can i gain a relationship with my father, bec my mom said my dad never wanted, me he takes care of my brothers and sister in his new family, or your children demeaning the themselves to get your attention, by climbing up and down a pole,  doing things to get that fatherly or motherly attention they feel as a kid that's lacking  .

so lets end this cycle of he me and she what we going to do baby,  end in a positive way upholding the father as  head of the household children no matter what household your in at this time,even if your mother have a new life respect her new head as the head of there household giving respect in a way, while staying in a child's place.

so to all the fathers of the world, stand up like the true kings that you are leaving a legacy for your sons to carry in a positive way, saying yes that's my dad no matter what or who he was with he always made sure his children was taking care of and not lacking for anything,                                                                                                                                                                    
like the bible says fathers do not be irritating your children, but show them the love and stability of a GOD fearing household so no matter if the kids are with the mother there fine, or with the dad everything is fine.. because to co-parent in a way that the lord above is holding each puzzle peace and being blessed that his holy spirit is holding  each dot to dot puzzle  connecting each  family to join one another in a circle of co-parenting were the children only see love,and love is the true connection that will keep this union because that's what it is a family a union the bonds all party's together   rather they like it or not so they might as well just get along.                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                      i am man a father and a husband from a male point of view
answer to the 4 part series stepmother follow by, when a women fed up                        

by helen burnett-davis                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                            

Helen's poetic cafe lounge Presents(when a women fed-up answer to the st...

Helen's poetic cafe lounge Presents(when a women fed-up answer to the st...

when a mothers fed up answer to the stepmother poem(a three part series poem)

as I wait for the clock, to turn 5:30 I answer I few more calls at work, I look at the clock again, and the hand has not move forward from the last moment i looked.
Its hard for single women, or when your at a transition of changing your life from being in a relationship or marriage that you worked so hard at making it work, and even attempting to make it work for the children s sake,

But over time the stress and anxieties is overwhelming and you get sick in tired of being sick and tired that you finally put all the cards on the table and evaluate will this chess move be better for me and my children if a pay more attention to whats going wrong, in this relationship, that's draining every drop of love, out of me,

But over time the stress and anxieties is overwhelming and you get sick in tired of being sick and tired that you finally put all the cards on the table and evaluate will this chess move be better for me and my children if a pay more attention to whats going wrong, in this relationship, that's draining every drop of love, out of me,

But there are women out there that don't even think a second thought about there ex or ex husband. because all the energy they use in the relationship to make things work, failed because when a woman loves they love hard. but when a women is a go geter they put there big girl boots on strap tight, prep there face to beat there face for the beauty they display inside and out, and keep it moving keeping real, telling there children that daddy has move on, you will be visiting your dad on such and such date but be with mommy on the majority of the days,

But being the beautiful super women you are, you make moves makes things happen because now your the head of your household, not being a man and playing his role, but playing a role as a mother taking care of her children because only you have to do this, and with prayer and supplication GOD is always on your side to make things work, never letting go to the point of dis pare not being capable of baring the situation at hand,

being the true diva you are explain to the children even though daddy has another wife or girl friend, I am your mother by all rights, but me being the classy upstanding women I am you respect your fathers new wife or girlfriend,, I know it may be scary at times but rem mommy is just one phone call away, and when you need me I am a hop skip jump away.

Then there the aspect will you have to deal with the evil side of your ex better half, who will throw stones and daggers on purpose to try and get you to feeling that, your worth is not equal to hers, but you like baby take several seats, I am happy I am free. because now i can focus on me getting to know me inside and out, and let you worry about the quality's i fell out of love with and you fell in-love with, because I have been there done that , I really do wish you well if we each as adult play are parts this co parenting thing can really work, because the motto of the mother, the first no tea no shade, no stress no strife and let me be my kids mother and you play your role as your husband new wife. because I play role was deep down in the trenches, having your back, through the highs and the lows, and now were here having to co-parent, and I am still standing tall and strong, because when I got to the point of being fed-up this the song that I sung to myself,,  and the badge i wear .because when a women s fed up its nothing you can do about .its like running out of love then its to late to talk about it.;

when a mothers fed up, answer to the stepmother,
by Helen Burnett-Davis

Helen's poetic cafe lounge PRESENTS(THE STEPMOTHER()From her point of vi...

the stepmother, from her point of view

when i took this vowel , to honor you and you honor me
and we are to be down for each other through thick and thin and thick as thieves
I for you and you for me, when we agreed to make this family blended and extended together, because of the love we share for one another,

we both came to the table of love, with added additions that came from our past love and lost of love
but we join together in complete matrimonial bliss, and in unity and i said i do, and you reciprocated the i dos with the i love yous will you be my wife and can we make this work and do what it do,
with the almighty eyes holy covering our union that he put together and let no man, or woman, pull us apart or  6 feet under down with stress, strife and bitter jealousy because of the ex non resilience to move on,

And when you gave me or she, the same offer, they said no , and constantly gave you the run around
and when i said yes, let the games begin, 1. dropping the kids unannounced , 2 using the kids as a pawn to get you to do things, that she should of accepted when you wanted to do them for  she, but now that you have moved on, the hate starts to surface saying words of bitter hurt to the new love you have in your life that said yes to you, that i will love you through thick and thin, through the ups and downs , the backs and forth and still respecting this love and the longevity of this love that brought us together in the first place,

 and she's using the love that they had for family's and in-laws when they held the crown to be in that place. forever trying to get them to go against you, because the love you have now made the decision that they failed to make, so they go on this mission to scope out and deceive others to manipulate situations
to go in there favor to get the new in-laws in your life to throw shade and daggers at you. but be strong my sister, because remember the bond and the vowels you both took, let no one pull you apart, if they don't want to be civil and respectable, forsake all and cling to your mate .

and the love you have for your mate, and the children that become blended to this family, sometimes the ex use the children to undermined the household on purpose because the mothers gave them strict instructions to do so, but the love you have for each other and you bring this up to your mate at first he may be blinded by the love he has for his children but when the craziness and the drama comes to a point of no return, then the father of the children has to put his foot down and say, you have a mother and if you don't respect my new house hold, you have no choice too keep your stance and anger in a kids place, and when you go home to your mama tell her to play her positions and stay in her lane, and lets raise these children in a supportive co parenting, stable adult households.

as a stepmother no one ever stands up and advocate what she has to go through, its not easy and overtime it will get better, but my motto to all you women out there that or stepmothers, if the family can't be in complete harmony pray first, talk to your husband, and let the ex know, that the role that they could of played has a permanent position that has been filled,. remember you said no, and i said yes, so play your role and go on with your life, because the time and energy that you are putting in and using the kids to advance and enhance your schemes is not going to get you any where and in the long run, it puts a strain on the relationship with the kids and there father, as you downgrade the children  relationship with there father, degrading him to the point the children grow up not having respect and the honor and giving the father disrespect because of the bitterness you display when the kids our in your presence; like the bible says honor your father and your mother if you do things will go well for you;

because i always say, if you can't respect me, as your stepmother, you don't even have to call me mommy but just respect me, as your fathers wife, your brother and sisters mother, and me as a women of this house- hold that you benefit from the accommodations as well and if you don't want to comply your mother is just a phone call away, and i will do everything i can to respect you as a child and my husbands offspring but you will have to play your role, and your positions to make this work.

but if not the corruption in my household will not be tolerated, the stepmother, has feelings too, and i am sure the world has many stepmothers point of views, that they deal with, your not wishing the children no harm but they can always go back home to there mothers, and entertain all the negativity in that household all they want,

so to all the stepmothers out there wear this badge so if you don't want to play your part and play it cool theirs always a place at you mamas  to act a fool.

the stepmother by helen burnett-davis                                                                                              

Helen's poetic cafe lounge PRESENTS(THE STEPMOTHER()From her point of view)

TO ADAPT

Helen's poetic cafe lounge(To love or not to love a battle of your mind...

(poem of the day 2014) inspired love (+playlist)

Helen's poetic cafe lounge presents BACK IN THE DAY (+playlist)

Helen's poetic cafe lounge PRESENTS( Struggle) poem of the day (+playlist)

FORGIVE

Helen's poetic cafe lounge PRESENTS(Love shook and twisted)

struggle

struggle

my mind is blown my mind is blown, tossing and turning worrying about life events
i am worry or is worry me, worrying  about when my next pay check is to come, living day by day counting my coins, as i lay the bills out on the table, putting a hundred here 50 here for the light and the gas, or the water, grief and worry outline my face, as the struggle outline my frown lines, putting in hard work, making ends meet and stretch to the next cycle of events, that my happen to pop out of this air. of despair
a dollar here and a dollar short, paying Caesar things to Caesar, because he wants and go get  and will get his  due, by twice a month appearing on your livelihood called deduction that they say will help you in the long run, oh down around the end of the year stepping into the new year, oh tax time, taxing to the point  that  you barely have anything to account for, like a every ending cycle of trying to play catch up in this game called life. I may pay Caesar things to Caesar but i pay all things to the lord above, my life my breath just waking up to to day, but the almighty gods son pay the ultimate price for us to have the chance to have a longtime respite of love and comfort, and peace, and harmony not wanting for anything, living in pure safety and happiness. he just ask us to be  patient, be long suffering, and that he would never let us go threw anything that we can't bare.

But be mindful that this struggle is real, and its laying in the power of the wicked one kids dying people crying, longing for a better days ahead, standing in bread and food lines, people pushing and arguing to get to the head of the line. throwing shade to the old lady in the front of the line, standing with hunger and grief in her face.

as she takes baby and stutter steps  to the table, as someone else picks and dictates what they think you should have, as she clutch the bread and the fruits in a hurry too taste the food that  she can barley get it in her mouth , as you kindly standing behind her and open  up the food for her, and her drink and you  ask her to rest as you, kindly put the free items in her cart.

as she gently touch your face with acceptance and gratitude, for that little gesture as the line gets more hectic over time. and you never know this person of interest could be a angel that you entertained in disguise . because of the love and kindness you just displayed. knowing that you have to hurry up and get back in the line, because it help,  you and your family make ends meet,  just that extra that you are blessed with to make them ends meet .

the struggle, of life may seem hard at times and you may not know were your last dollar will, come from, or your next meal, but having faith for the assured things to come, every 30 or 31 days, you end up always making it and making due, and the time flies by so fast, you forget why you were stressing in the first place.

the struggle often lets you see others, not being as fortunate as you, the pain in there eyes, not having clean clothes to wear or having to wear the same clothes everyday for school, or work having to wash up in a gas station every morning while you strive to keep your job keeping ever secret that, you come to work everyday and go home to your car every evening.

but the struggle to help some one else, should not be and impairment to pay it forward, because as life goes on with its struggles and ups and down the person you may have helped and not expected anything in return.may be that one person down the line that will safe you from your struggles and keep you wondering were you entertained by angel:)

the struggle by helen davis

Tear stained pillow cases

My Tear stain pillowcase

 each stain on my pillowcase outline, my pain and storm and my happiness
and sorrows, my passions my desires, my pillow is like my best friend
 representing the only thing I Can hug and hold without passing judgement
or quick to return a response of negativity,.

  my pillow is never Passive-aggressive in behavior  having expression of hostility, such as through procrastination, sarcasm, hostile jokes, stubbornness, resentment, , or deliberate or repeated failure to accomplish requested tasks for which one is (often explicitly) responsible.
 for showing, the love, that I give, you, just saying thank you for the way you love me with every since of urgency
to make sure your fine and strait, not wanting nothing in return, but to make you stand tall and feel like a man or a love should feel.

the life you live is a turning  point for how the rest of your life should play out.  Know matter what you do in life, what you've done in life there's consequences for how your actions will effect the world , society and yourself.;
 But than you get yourself in a situation were drama will take a toll  on your mind-frame, were   you get so caught up that there no turning back, and we all know it take 5min to get in trouble and a lifetime getting out of it..

we all have our personal time and space, were we just want to be alone, to pray, to sort out life or what in the hell just happened to put me in this frame of mind, as old feelings and emotions, crowd your mind into thinking the what haves or the haves and the have nots.

my tear stain pillow as seen many days of happiness, of joy, joy and pain, as my head fits so perfectly on my pillow seeing all things of lust and passion, evening squeezing it so hard when that moment of pleasure starts
to seep out and you have to bury your face in your pillow to silence the noise and heated energy in that space and time.


my tear stained pillow is forever loyal, knowing i will replace its dressing with a clean fresh case, often knowing my loyalty, my cries will never be spoke about, are revealed to anyone.. what my heartfelt tears.
only the four walls, and me and my pillow in my room, only GOD knowing the contents, and the context  of every conversation said and spoken about in secrecy .

my pillow is always laying next to its partner, and matching mate even having the same dark blue pillow case. as i lay in bed next to my husband, with is his alone thoughts in his mind, and the conversations with his pillow. they only pillow talk that is revealed is the love we speak about to each other, and what we want more in our life together and for each other.

and when our bed is all alone in the privacy of our room, and our pillow case lay side by side. i often ponder the conversations they would have together if that was possible.

as my tears frame my face and my thoughts and emotions will ever be imprinted, as you connect the dots to my pain, my, sorrow, my happiness. like maze said in there song, joy, and pain, sunshine and rain,, joy and pain i want sunshine and rain. joy and pain i want sunshine and rain,

tear stained pillow cases by helen davis(burnett)

BACK IN THE DAY

back in the day life seem so simple,
back in the day, you could sit on your front porch at night at reminisce about the good ole days with your family, siblings, and real close friends of the family, that would be there for you at a drop of a hat.
back in the day when you would pop off and get sassy the neighbors who knew your parents were allowed to get on you when they saw you doing thing inappropriate  when your parents and family were not around, telling you to sit your fast tail down before I tell your moma and  daddy,'
back in the day
knowing that you  immediately better pay attention because of the respect you had for your elders, in the strict regulations in being raised to respect your elders, in the meantime respect is earned and not given, riding the fine line to talk back, to that nosey neighbor with you being a kid thinking they trying to get in your bizness in reality they were trying to warn you and guide your from running and falling in the trap of being disobedient just to hang with kids that parents let them run wild and come and go as they please thinking what fun they may be having playing double dutch on the front side walk, after the street lights came on, as cars with cute boys driving by with base in there system with them big ole house speakers in the back of there trunk or back seats
bumping run dmc hard times, and the ll cool j singing i need love

back in the day when you could buy lemon heads for ten cents at the corner store and you had 5 dollars and you could get a grip of  jolly rancher sticks you all ready noooooooo that apple was the bomb,
back in the day you knowing that the

The lemon head is the greatest candy someone could ever invent.its round tasty yellow, sweet, lemony, and sour at the same time, I love these tasty superior treats in my childhood and I love them now in my adulthood, I use to have to pack a week, I lied 4  packs a week,
Everytime I  put this treat in my mouth it reminds me of  back in the day .of doubledutch in the front yard of my grandma's house, doing the cheers that were popular back then like step step step by step helen my name love is my game I got this boy on my mind don't know his sign but virgo is mine so put a hip in your motion  and put it in slow motion oew she think she bad, bad enough to kick her beep or  step to the left step by step step to the right step by step it really doesn't matter who shakes the best hey hey cause I shake the best my name is helen and as you see hey hey cause when  I shake I make a blind man.  cheering with your home girls that live in your neighborhood brings back fond memories of just  going to the corner store buying chips for 50cents and now and laters, those our the bomb too. but it takes my mind back to a time of simple things in life,listeners let your mind drift back to listening to prince, and the beastie boys, the fat boys, going to the mall with your friends, eating doritos and pickles together, watching good times and whats happening, with that little girl dee,(what you talking about)  oh snap wrong show that was gary coleman that said that. but dee would say roger eww I'm ah tell moma . back in the day 
how about going to the skating ring with your friends trying to look cute and going around in circles to see if any cute boys are checking you out.  watching the movie purple rain over and over again. having your hair in either a basket weave of braids are a jerry curl,  and please dont forget wearing your hair in that tight asymmetrical hair cuts that salt n pepa use to wear while jamming to  I'll take your man on video soul and yo mtv raps that only came on , saturdays and you would tape your favorite videos on the vcr having it set to record next week to jam to your favorites .back than lite skinned black men with long curls were the thing. then a few years after that tall dark skinned balled  head dudes that wore basket ball jerseys and shorts that emulated there favorite basket ball team looking fly as  all get out, back in the day all these things I remember in my childhood and teen years  brings back fond memories and just eating your favorite candy brings you back to a time in your life of pure innocent fun.
back in the day just sitting and for a moment in time you get a respite in your memory bank to relive a time in your life and pay homage to a time period, when just reminiscing brings back fond times and memories, that continue to leave foot prints of the past while making new good memories in your future to join the legacy of the past and the present.

back in the day by helen burnett davis

To love or not to love a battle of your mind and body

As I ponder over and over in my mind, To love, or not to love, in my mind,, My mind its telling me no but my body is telling me yes, as r. Kelly would say, I have been in so many situations that made that song so appealing to my membranes. As I was being touch my mind would say if I let go to this pleasure would there be any regrets later?

will I be able to forgive myself for the decision I make knowing right from wrong and being raised in a religious household. Fighting a battle with my free will to entertain these thoughts of pleasure.

Seeing your friends go out to party and dances , while you stay at home looking out the window , wondering how fun it would be if you can just indulge in such a atmosphere of fun and camaraderie. while your grandparents calling you to read the next  verse in your bible study,

your friends asking you, can you go to the movies and can you go out on a date, and your grandparents on one shoulder saying bad associations spoils useful habits, and temptation on the other shoulder saying its okay, know one will no , if we meet and sneak to the park, are you and a bunch of your friends, meet at the movies, just say your going to spend the night over your best friend no problems no worries.

but deep down inside your asking yourself what should i do, because the bloom of youth is ever so present in your dynamics of growing into womanhood, as you know whats right from wrong always being showed in the bible God's word ever present in your mind, and way of life,

by not giving into temptation of sexual desire before being married, being that your body is a temple something special for both you and your prospective mate to enjoy in the boundaries of holy matrimony that the lord has set before us, not forsaking the marriage bed.

as you toss and turn its like your mind is in a battle field because you feel like your missing out on all the things your friends out in the world or partaking in, fun fun fun, while you sit at home being bored bored bored
then while you are sneaking and talking to this person of interest having feelings and catching feelings it may seem deep and loving to you, as you find your feelings getting stronger and stronger and the emotions like a tornado spinning out of control,

its like a tug of war when you're dealing with your emotions and desires, your pleasure zone goes sky high when you're in that moment of ecstasy and all thoughts of common sense is out the doorway, But then again in a split second in your mind speech bubble of your mental thought process  you conjure up the thoughts if a make love to this fool will there be a aftermath of problem or more pleasurable moments to come and by me letting myself go sexually will this progress into a meaningful relationship.

Or would the deceptive powers of my decision i made succumb to or  yield to superior strength or force  overpowering my appeal or desire to <succumb to temptation> 
or will my decision  to be brought to an end (as death) by the effect of destructive  and disruptive forces. that i allowed to be entertained in my life;

That leads you in this way of life, if you gave into the temptation, and your left all alone with a new life growing inside of you, the beautiful blessing of life, anew, by you praying for forgiveness, and have a repentive attitude for the almighty to give you the strength to cope and endure with this new journey and seasons you are about to partake in your life for 18 years to come,

we may all have fallen into this cycle one time or another in our life without being in union blessed by the almighty but the beautiful thing is, that He never we leave us, we always leave him, and by displaying the right heart condition, and teaching others whats required of us so, they won't succumb to the plows of this system of things, but having the gift of free will, what way it will guide us is a personal choice we personally have to make on our own,

but remember even if you slip , because the reality is humans our born into sin, that, it can always be rectified threw the blessings his and holy spirit, and if you just reach out and ask for forgiveness you always will be led into the right direction, to have  the true meaning of love, and that's true agape love always adapting the fruit-ages of the spirit in your way of life so when the battle of your mind and body, starts to wage war with you,
 Don't worry about anything; instead, pray about everything. Tell God what you need, and thank him for all he has done.Philippians 4:6

to love and not to love a battle of your mind and body by helen burnett-davis

betrayal

betrayal

is the breaking or violation of a presumptive contract, trust, or confidence that produces moral and psychological conflict within a relationship amongst individuals, 

An act of betrayal creates a signature of foot prints  in both its victims and its trader,  exhibiting  negative behaviours, thoughts, and feelings. while creating confusion and the one hurt demanding some kind of atonement from this trader who in turn may experience guilt or shame, or remorse

 In the meantime the person having invested all this love, and commitment and sacrificing everything to be with this person, losing sight of all the things in life that meant a great deal to them, such as family, friends, your parents, God, or job, finances, building the person up to someone who you thought would have integrity, to make moves in the right directions, that will benefit not only you but the betrayer as well.

but when you find out this trust was broken violated in a way, feeling hurt to the depths of your inner being
especially when that person has a no care attitude, and you come out feeling like everything you invested in this relationship, was all a beautiful dream turned into a reality of a nightmare of unhappiness.

as the tears stain your pillow, each tear representing the love you once had for this person, each tear defining each milestone you thought the relationship was developing to, in the meantime your happy that you did not make this person your baby daddy without putting a ring on it first.

it may hurt to start over but with prayer, heartfelt prayer asking the lord to uplift the heavy pain and burden you our carrying from a love you thought was going to end up in a matrimonial love fest,enjoying this beautiful time with family and friends,

but that reality is all gone, and replace with the reality of betrayal like many daggers thrown your way, not having the energy to dodge a single blow of hate and dishonestly

after you finish your heartfelt prayers, you get up, looking at life in a better light a new prospective, that darkness turned into a light of happiness, no time for bitterness and throwing shade, not even thinking about giving that person, a single moment of your time, or energy to make you out to be a bitter person, lacking love and making it hard for the next person to show you true love without a shadow of a doubt having faith for the assured things to come that you will be blessed with someone that will honor, and respect you, and love you, like a person should,

now you are standing tall because you prayed and claimed happiness in your heart and your life, and being observant for the next time, observing the early warning signs if a love is not going to be something worth working for and sacrificing for. because by you showing love not hate to this perpetrator, not only are you following in the lords footsteps to love thy neighbor as oneself, 

your finally telling the latchkey to give back the keys of your heart because your not worthy of it, while giving them the side wink, keeping it moving with know turning and looking back,  just being happy and grateful that you found out the love you thought was beautiful and kind turn out to be a betrayal of a

Double crossing  deceive by double-dealing. deliberate collusion of a false love of betrayl

betrayal by  helen burnett-davis